Lately, I've been convicted about the tight grip that I have on my boys. Aside from church, we are basically homebodies. We don't really get out and do too much with others or even on our own. Part of this is the fact that we only have one vehicle, whereas the other part is concerning their food allergies. I have been very careful to control their environment to guard against the exposure to their food allergens. Because Samuel is so sensitive to milk, we have avoided eating out and even going to places where the milk residue would be highest concentrated. I know that I have a responsibility to protect my boys from what could hurt them. But I think that I have gone overboard on the protection.
Our Christmas holiday was spent going to many different Christmas celebrations on Josh's side. I enjoy spending time with Josh's family and have gotten to know some of them fairly well over the 6 years Josh and I have been together. As much as I enjoy his various family celebrations (all centered around food), I was still very nervous to attend them. Always in the back of my mind, I feared that the boys would eat something they shouldn't and react violently enough that they would require the Epi-Pen.(Even though, we have never had to use the Epi-Pen.) But that didn't happen. Josh and I, along with Josh's mom, planned ahead enough that we made sure we had safe foods for the boys, during all of the events. In fact, things went so smoothly over the holidays that the boys didn't even get break out in hives. (Samuel's asthma did flare up, but we were prepared with the nebulizer and so we were able to keep it under control.)
Christmas has shown me that the boys will do okay in food environments. As long as I plan ahead to have safe foods for them. I've been reading several other blogs lately written by food allergic people. The confidence they have in being involved with the world has made me realize that I don't have to be so afraid of food allergies.
Josh and I are reading The Power of a Praying Parent together. In one of the first chapters, the author talks about giving your child to God and entrusting Him with their lives. Very convicting, especially in this area. I'm not trusting in God to keep my boys safe from allergic reactions. Granted, I know I need to be responsible and do what I can to protect them, but beyond that I need to entrust my fears to Him and rest in His protection for my boys. I can't let my fears rule me my life anymore. Easier said than done, but it is something I am going to work on in my life this year. My first act of branching out is to sign up my family for the Dinner Club at church. This will put us in "uncontrolled" environments food-wise, but as long as I can trust in God and plan ahead, it will be a good experience for us. I'm glad we have a patient God, because I'm sure this will be a long journey.